White Waves

I am a wife, a mother of three young children, who seeks meaning and invites God to be in my life. I don’t always do this perfectly and my relationship with God is far from one which is free from doubt or difficulty. I have always had an interest and dream to write a complete novel. For a long time I did not know what that novel was going to be about. Now I know. I dream to write an account of the gospels from the point of view of the women who lived the experience of encountering Jesus during his lifetime.

I have come to realise that the task of writing this work is not one which I can do on my own. I struggle to find not only the time to write but also a sometimes inspiration does not come when I do have some time. Sometimes the dream to write the novel has been mixed up with attachments relating to my pride, ego and self-image and I wonder what the dream to write is truly about. If it is from God then he must want to make use of it. It cannot simply be for myself? Or, can it be? Is the desire and the process of writing is simply meant to be for drawing myself closer to God? Or is it to also help others in the process?

My husband recently has been interested in businesses of which the product is a skill or expertise of the owner. Examples would be online how to guides or

It occurred to me that maybe what I needed to do with my writing rather than keep it to myself and struggle along with it and what it was meant for was to do in a sense the opposite there and do in some respects the opposite of what these expertise type businesses were doing. I am not an expert. I don’t have a degree in theology or ancient history or know all of the intricacies about life in the time of Jesus. But I seek to write about it. I also would like to share my writing on other topics along the way. Perhaps to assist me with writing my work but also perhaps to build some kind of community and invite discussion about the deeper meaning of life. I look forward to sharing this journey with you.